home like hell

home like hell , so maybe it's just that I really fit the portion until now. house like hell, because they do not know why I come home I feel like hell. once when I was little my father used to hit me with a pipe or hose, or maybe a belt, when taught to read and it makes me sick, and my mother that I never knew my mama did not like it, because now it is so unfair, he is more like a judge next difficult. when I was little, my life may be the same as you, so play, play and play, but maybe there is that divides us, namely whether your dad ever hit you? honestly until today I really felt that his name could be hurt or injured. My house, I really do not like being at home too long, you know why? because "a house like hell" every day there should be a good noisy busy taking care of my mama that I'm older brother or father is always noisy and like to mix my business I really felt like a child. you realize? I was 17 years, yes, although not too old, but look at you giving me the freedom to organize the life within me. I want to make you proud, I want to make you happy, so please support and give me freedom.

I will use the freedom you gave me the responsibility. maybe I'm at the point of maturity or period of time to turn into adults. so I'm like this. but do you know? You make me like a zombie! life but has no heart. You realize? with the attitude that you like this, just the same to make your child, or your brother, be someone who is always hiding behind someone else, I want to be ahead than behind. and do you know? mother? dad? Your attitude to me, making your child is dead! You have killed me! You have made me lose heart, now my heart like a stone. too much sadness and tears. if suicide is not a sin , then I'll do it, GOD! GOD! please , please give them the awareness! they do not know what they do, they have destroyed the hopes and all that I want to get in this life: '(like a rainbow without color, like the sun without rays, like a bird without wings, like I like people who do not have the heart and love affection :'( but from all that I am grateful to have friends like you, he is Jesus, friend and true hero he was always there beside me and pushed me in the face of this mortal world, thank you jesus for everything in my life:) I hope You all are blessed Him